As of this past wednesday I am back on the medicine.  I was hoping to wait until after the wedding but I'm guessing they want me on it for a week before I go for my normal visit to U of P which is this Thursday and which also happens to be the day we are leaving for Florida.  So needless to say I am stressed out over making our flight and having things work out perfectly so we can get the rental cars and all of us in them together without having someone wait behind for me and Joe or having to come pick us up (then on top of worrying about the luggage, Joey's tux, Erin's Dad's tux... ugh the whole kit and koboddle:)...

Overall I am doing ok, I feel the meds kicking in already with the big "D" starting and the tiredness hitting again.  Seems like it's working faster this time though I was off so much longer.  I just need to make it through the wedding, I want to feel good for that, to enjoy it and celebrate with everyone.  I was feeling awesome being off the medicine so I just want that feeling to continue over the next week or so.  As the wedding is approaching and during the past couple of weeks I've been a little despressed that I backed out being a bridesmaids, I knew I had to as there would just be too many things I couldn't or wouldn't be able to do, and then heaven forbid not being healthy enough to even attend the wedding let alone be in it, I just couldn't take the chance but now of course it's here, I was on a medicine break for the past 3 weeks, have felt so goodd and so now I feel sorry for myself to not be included.  Oh well I know I had to make the best decision at the time so now I just need to be happy with that decision, to know that I'll be there to see Joe and Erin get married, I helped leading up to it as much as I could in the months leading up to their big day and now in the days beforehand at least I'll be around to help with the kids while everyone else does the bridal party stuff - and lord knows I'm better at that part anyone :)

Keir and I checked out the other hall for her wedding so hopefully that will be finalized too as soon as we get back from Florida.  She can make the 6 months beforehand so they will be able to get married at Holy Trinity and that really really makes me happy.  Now we just need to finalize everything else, start planning again as soon as possible so we can take advantage of my feeling ok right now too.  At least I can get it all started (haha pay for this part) and then Keir and her bridesmaids can pick up the next part.

Stewie is finally doing good, fully potty trained, still can't get him to bark to go out but at least now he will do a little cry at the door so when were awake it works perfectly just doesn't fly so good at night but thankfully for the most part he is on Joey hours so that does help a lot.  Nate has started daycare 3 days a week and it seems to be going real well.  He made a couple of drawings and did 2 crafts for Keirstyn for mother's day so that was pretty awesome to see her have/get. 

I think that's about it, I have just been running around trying to do things that I can't do when the medicine kicks in strongly.  I guess the hope is that the break will have given me some time to get healthy (clear up the nutrient issues etc...), this is the last time on it if something happens again, I should already be off but since it appears to be doing something I think they want to try one more time.  And I think that one more time is all I am willing to try.  Feeling good these past couple of weeks certainly made going back on the medicine a lot harder and made me fully realize some important decisions I'll have coming up so I really need to decide what path to take if I get sick again.  But for now I am just going to try not to think about it too much, I'm just going to go enjoy the time in Florida, enjoy seeing my brother and Erin get married, to be a part of watching that cycle finally close exactly the way it should have (as a perfect circle) and I'm looking forward to seeing the wedding through Kayla's eyes - watching her parents get married...

I hope everyone is doing well.  Please know that you all are in my thoughts and prayers.  I miss seeing everyone and hope that after the wedding I can get back in touch with some of you.

Love & Peace

Sue