Sue :)...  So I think Thursday is the day... I think it's time to shave off the hair.  It's falling out, got a few bald spots and a dear friend of mine tell me that when she saw the first sign she said ok do it now cause watching in fall out will be more devasting SO I am pretty sure that's what I decided.  And I think too that maybe it's my way of taking my hair out of it before the medicine takes it from me, you know like I have control over when and how it goes.  Just another piece of my lastest attitude in saying screw you, your not getting me I'll take care of you first.  Be prepared for the next time you see me, I'll have a little make-up on (now that is shocking.... as I really don't wear make-up) and my bald head covered in some way, just hope I can learn to tie those darn scarfs.

Well if you saw my Facebook you by now know I got kicked in the butt with the Flu over the weekend and then woke up yesterday to pink eye... ha freaking ha right.  Trying to not get to bummed out as I realize at this point my immune system is not what it used to be.  Can't wait to go the U of P Thursday to talk about all of this stuff that's going on and to see if I should be taking extra precautions as personally I don't like being sick let alone having to worry about EVERYTHING that's out there and am I going to get it. Do you know the last time I had pink eye?  Geez I think if was when Keirstyn was a baby/little girl and I got it from her.  This shit hurts (lol).

 looked into that volunteer opportunity and sad to say that at least this one isn't going to work out, it's an "on-call" type of thing and it's a little further than I thought.  With my good day / bad day type thing I can't commite to being on-call and plus there is a pretty good wait list for it.  I have another idea in mind that I hope to be able to do, I'll let you know if it works out.

Another dear friend of mine (Andrea - yes the sendingsuesmiles queen - or atleast one of them) gave me this wonderful Journel to write in for my grandson as I had said during one of our conversations that having Nathan not remember me would be one of the hardest things to deal with if I don't survive.  So she gave me a journel and said write to him :).  Well I do and then took it a little bit further and got another Journel (got the pretty one from sendingsuesmiles) and I decided to keep a journel for my family and very dear closes friends.  I'm writing letters and little reminders of things we did, fun we had, items like that.  Maybe we will get lucky and 5 years from now we can sit around with a couple of drinks and we will read them or worse case they will be read after I am gone but at least I'm "getting a chance to say goodbye and I love you" to the people who have meant the most to me.  Shame that my best writing ideas come at 3am and Joey's sleeping so I can't write then (haha) I'll have to figure something else out.

Saw this quote today and was like wow, this makes a lot of sense and maybe here's another way to change the way we live, I know I personally used to say "Hell" no this is Hell - here on earth....  Sometimes in our lives we reach rock bottom. We experience what we call HELL. For each of us it’s dressed up differently, but for all of us it is dark, tough and devastating. This HELL can be our awakening. Some people call it a breakdown; I believe it is a breakthrough

A friend of a friend is getting operated on Friday - she has lung cancer, she is young and has 2 little ones so can you all please pray for her surgery to be a success and that god keeps watch over her and her family.  Thank you

Love & Peace

Sue